Gone, yet Goner

Julian L G8

When I am an old remnant of the past

I will watch and observe

I will analyze those smaller than me

And pay attention to every little step and breath

I will sit in the background of their lives

Never being noticed

Laughing when they laugh

Smiling at them when deserving of it

And being proud of them when they’re worthy

Even if they don’t bother to listen

I will watch them succeed me

More than I could have ever imagined

And finally

Rest peacefully

Knowing they were better than me

You might forget me one day

Or maybe teach others about me

And all the little things I did

For myself

And for you

But in the end

It doesn't change a thing

You will soon be left without me

Wishing I could come back

Becoming upset

Resentful even

However

Please remember

Not mourn

We will always be connected

Knitted together by our souls

Even when the peace is troubled

We will then soon be together again

And continue to watch over the others

Now alongside one another

In a whole other place

Laughing once more

Smiling at each other once more

And being proud of each other once more

After so much time

I will cherish the solace

And remember the past

Reminiscing about the good

Reminiscing about the bad

Even if difficult

In the moment

But looking forward

To the future

And all the possible memories

All while being surrounded

And accompanied

By those I used to watch 

In pain and joy

And now

With my joy rekindled

I am born anew

Peacefully

No longer gone

As I once was

A cycle I will repeat 

As more wander

Forever

And ever